It may not be the kind of question I am supposed to ask here.I apologize if I violate any terms and conditions.But I really need an answer to it.I am in my mid 20s and just another average guy.But for long questions about the origins of the world,purpose of life,the ultimate goal of the professional rat-race, all these have been bothering me.I am not the hippie kind who would quit it all.I am rational and believe in scientific reasoning.I respect the professional life but I also know my insecurity about the questions related to the world around me,about Nature,about the Universe,about the pattern of things makes sense.Further, I also highly regard my professional engineering life and all the material security it affords me.
On these premises, which I have tried my best to describe,here is my question to all you people,especially those who are 45+ dedicated mathematicians/engineers/scientists, those who know about Mathematics deeply and know professional and social life much better due to experience.
---Is a life-long dedication to Mathematics, in the form of committing a few hours a day,both in terms of time and dedication, WORTH IT?Will it go a long way in helping me in my professional engineering life as well as helping me in understanding nature later in life when I go for it with full-fledged dedication?Nature is after all best described in mathematics....I am not that gifted, but I can see that mathematics has been the continuous thread that links us to our ancestors thousands of years and beyond, and it will continue to link us to the future.Everything may change but laws of nature and laws of Mathematics remains constant---
To be clear, let me put it succinctly--Is the commitment in terms of time and effort worth every bit of it? (I didn't intend the question to be so roundabout, but sitting alone by the beach-side and looking at the dark starry sky, raises questions in my mind that drives me insane,GIVES ME THE CREEPS..PLEASE HELP!!)